3 Days

I can't hardly believe that I am down to the last few days.  It has felt like an eternity in here.  I am still trying to picture myself holding this baby, and feeling him in my arms for the first time.  It's all so surreal.  I am really getting more uncomfortable by the day.  The back and stomach cramps are getting old, as are the contractions I have had.

My chances of taking him home are extremely slim!  He is probably going to be here for a short period of time.  Up to about two weeks as long as there isn't anything seriously wrong with him, and as of now everything looks great.  I am praying for a quick, safe delivery; I've also been praying for a healthy baby.  I really really hope all goes well!  I just need to prepare myself to go home without him though.  Prepare for the worst and hope for the best!  

Erik and his girlfriend Lisa are on there way out to see me this evening.  I am excited to see them!  It's been 3 weeks since I have seen Erik, which is a long time for me to go without seeing my brother.  I am surprised they are coming out today because I know they were planning on coming out after the baby is born.  Twice in a week is pretty good for Erik, he hates this drive.

I will say that I have been very fortunate to have friends and family see me everyday.  It helps the time go by quicker that's for sure.  I get more and more tired as the days go on and I am not moving around too much.  I'm not sleeping well through the night and so I have been making up for the sleep deprivation during the day.  I think it's my body's way of preparing itself to be up all hours of the day and night.  

Apparently the labor and delivery floor is full tonight and they are understaffed.  The good news is that I usually don't ask for much at night, so it makes no difference to me.  I have put in a request for the labor nurse that I want to have for Friday.  She has become familiar with my family, and I know she will have no problem telling anyone to leave if they talk too much.  I really want to be left alone during labor.  I need to be able to focus and breathe through my contractions without any distractions.  That would be difficult with the loud mouths in my family.  Terri is so nervous you would think she was going to be the one giving birth.  She is the one person I trust to shut up, well her and Loressa.  My mother will not be able to help herself, Marty for sure will break the rules and my grandma will try and pat my arm at the absolute wrong time.  Beautiful Bobbie will try and make me laugh guaranteed, and yes all these people will be in the room while I am in labor.  If they don't bother me, they can stay for the delivery as long as their heads aren't in my crotch checking things out.  That spot is reserved for my doctor and the nurse.  

We are going to video the delivery, but not the nasty view.  Mainly just when he comes out and they clean him all up.  Hopefully I will get to see him for a few minutes before they whisk him away but I am not trying to get my hopes up.  The benefit of having a vaginal delivery is that I will get to head over to the NICU after everything is said and done and see him.  I will also get a report on what's going on with him health wise.

Well, I need a break from the computer.  My eyes are getting tired and my head is starting to ache.  I need to relax before my visitors arrive.  They are coming kind of late for me.  Normally I am on my way to la la land.