Disappointed and Still Waiting

I had the worst day emotionally since I have been here today.  Yesterday I had contractions in a steady pattern from 12:00 p.m. to 3:00 a.m. this morning.  The evening nurse felt certain that the doctor would go ahead and induce labor this morning instead of letting this linger on.  Come to find out the most conservative Perinatologist in the practice was doing rounds this morning and he decided against it.  If I would have had any of the others, I felt pretty good about my chances of an induction.  I was just so drained.  I didn't sleep all night and I expected to have the baby by today.  I figured with a vaginal delivery I would be going home by tomorrow.  All the nurses and doctors that were working yesterday were certain it was labor.  The contractions just kept coming and coming, they didn't let up and the intensity was strong.  They even gave me some pain medication which I really regret taking because I felt it hindered the labor.  Everything came to a screaming halt this morning!  I was really pissed!

So today, I kept the drapes closed and the lights off and cried the whole day.  This baby is so damn stubborn.  I have 10 more days, 9 starting tomorrow until the scheduled induction.  Actually they are going to give me something to soften my cervix if it needs softening next Thursday evening, and then begin the pitocin on Friday morning.  Either way he should be born on the or by the 6th of February.  The nurses and doctors did say that I have a really good chance of having him before then, but I have decided not to get my hopes up again.  I also have decided no pain medication until the contractions are very close apart because I don't want to stop the labor.  

I am hoping I have a good nurse on tonight.  I will find out within the next 30 to 40 minutes.  I want to get out of bed and walk around for a while to see if I can get things started again but it will depend on the nurse.  My legs are sore and so is my abdomen.  I am also exhausted from staying up all night in anticipation from last night.  Marty even stayed the night last night and left the dogs at home alone.  We never do that, ever!

So hopefully I will have a better update soon, like a delivery date, the weight and how many inches that baby is...Sorry I couldn't have been more entertaining today.  I don't feel like I have much humor left in me.  I am just so tired!