I have been laying in this hospital bed for 20 days now.  I have 16 days more to go for a scheduled induction or c-section depending on the baby's position.  I am still frustrated, and tired of being here but it has become a bit more tolerable.  Marty has been bringing meals twice daily.  It may be the reason I am a little less frustrated.  I also downloaded the first two seasons of Dexter on iTunes.  Nothing like watching a serial killer hunt his victims while you are laying in a hospital bed.  I was glued to my computer for 2 days, hence the reason I didn't write.  Season 1 on the first day, season 2 the second.  It was great!  I've also discovered movie rentals on iTunes.  Tomorrow's playlist consists of Sex and the City and Tyler Perry's Meet the Browns.  I can catch American Justice and Cold Case files in the morning prior to my movies.

I am the patient on bed rest who has been here the longest now.  When I first got here they would talk about the patients who have been here the longest and discuss what was wrong with them.  I guess I am the one they are talking about now.  I've been told that I am the lowest maintenance patient. Who would have thought that I would be the lowest maintenance patient?I may be the lowest maintenance patient for the nurses but I am a pain in the ass for my mother and husband.  They pick up the slack.

This evening I am having a lot of contractions.  The doctor is actually going to come in in a few minutes and possibly take a look.  They don't like to do exams on patients this early because it increases risk for infection, but there is a pattern of contractions right now and they are getting more painful.  The nurse gave me Ambien, my magic pill, to relax and hopefully to slow things down for a bit.  They won't stop labor if it is indeed beginning but they want me to be relaxed and Ambien is great for that let me tell you.

I have been getting clammy and nervous in the last few days.  Before I wanted him out but now I am getting anxious.  I am actually thinking of the aftermath.  It is scary after you push that baby out.  It's painful to walk for several days and instead of staying at home to take care of the baby, I will be making visits to the NICU with a sewed up vagina.  YUCK!  I have never forgotten that feeling.  Using that squirt bottle wasn't all that great.  I will be buying a few pairs of sweat pants when I get out of here.  They need a numbing medication for that area.

Well, I am beginning to feel magical so I am going to stop writing for now and get some rest in case I am in labor.  I'll update you again hopefully tomorrow.